Saturday, September 24, 2005

okay..i just got feedback that some people might find my comments about PW condemning. no its not that..its just that some people have been making their teammates do more work, and i think its really unfair to them..

anyway, i want to eat the coconut flavoured ice cream from island creamery! i will go make friends with uncle stanley.

colours was quite okay. it there were some people who were receiving awards for the 6th time! crazy. after that went to serene centre to study and eat ice cream : ) made a new friend who drops money from his pockets! haaha

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Friday, September 23, 2005

hello peoplee i'm much much much better and now and consequentially studying has resumed its typical monotony which i can somewhat enjoy with wonderful friends around me.

i'd like to thank notably several j2s who have so kindly helped me over the past few days like geriberi, desmond, matin...all wonderful tutors in their special ways. and those who've studied with me all this while..making studying much less boring. and my soccer khakis who've provided much entertainment in this period barren of fun.

tomorrow is the awarding of colours at st marg's secondary sch, and several people are skipping it. im quite disgruntled at this cos its an honour to represent the school at such a ceremony, and it really wouldn't reflect well on RJC if many people were absent. they want to study...but i really think this should preside over something which can be solved with deft time management manoeuvres.

i see many people slogging away for their PW written reports and its quite a sorry sight to see that something spanning the past 6 months are all being cramped into these 3 or 4 days. and its even more disturbing to see that some group members are still incorrigibly slack at this point, leaving much work to their other group members who equally deserve the time to rest or to study. thank God our group was on task..phew.

after promos it'll be really hectic with the oral presentation, open house stuff and the interhouse games. but in case you all didn't know, there is STILL SCHOOL during the marking days!! i bet half the j1 population will skip school >=( annoying..

anyway, studyings been much more carefree nowadays, now that i dont have to think so much about other stuff. everythings almost back to normal, and i really ought to cherish this normality : ) can't wait till after promos! whoopee

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Sunday, September 18, 2005

im really thankful for all my friends, i've started to open up increasingly to more and more people. really, no man is an island.

but i really need to get distracted. in between studying, i've to think of something else, if not i just break down.

love is an indescribable sense of happiness. at least, i thought it was.

matthew admired God's creations at 12:33 AM [comment]

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Thursday, September 15, 2005

heyy its civics now and we're going for a break soon cos our CT is slack. haha. yesterday i studied in the library afer i decided i couldn't take the heat in the canteen. i kept falling asleep : (

ggxx

so after i went up i found hide and just sat with her and desmond later came down to join us. sigh..i'm not too stressed yet i guess cos i've been devising short-term study plans. and i've been trying to enjoy studying too! : )

tuesday was desmond's bday, wed was leisl's, today is yanni's. all these poor souls..having birthdays during the exam period : ) but it is heartening to know that amidst all the flurry to study, people still bother to spend a little time with their friends on their special days.

and i must play more basketball. or i'll get kapowed by jerling haha

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Sunday, September 11, 2005

hello...this whole holidays have been pretty interesting! a range of emotions from being happy studying to being really stressed all appeared..a moderate amount of entertainment has successfully been incorporated into the week's monotonous schedule of studying, such as goign to school and studying with COOL PEOPLE IN THE CANTEEN and going to WCG opening at suntec with lesles philip and wynsen..other than that, its just been studyinggg. and warcraft HAHAaa

waileong was so poor thing! he forgot to build his 5th acolyte in his final deciding match against 'omgmasswyverns' aka mashi. so he lost in the group stage cos he 'forgot to wear his pants'

today i studied in church! its quite conducive cos there's this nice room with a huge table. then if your bored u can go outside and jump around.

anyway today i was somehow feeling quite moody but now im quite happy cos of all the cool friends online! i think i've made numerous new friends over the past weeks or so, they're quite interesting to talk to! and i've also gotten closer to my already bestest buddies through all the time spent together studying

but things haven't been going smoothly in all aspects..but i guess its ok. :)God really puts everything in perspective once again.

chelsea >>>>>>>> all yay no goals conceded

i will do more advertisements: joober is going cheap! 20 cents

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Friday, September 02, 2005

hey everyone..thanks for showing so much concern, even the anonymous tags on the board have been pleasant : ) sometimes i think that telling the whole world im upset on my blog somehow seems to be attention seeking and self-pitying, but i guess everyone wants to feel loved in some way or another.

i think everything's pretty much fine now, and today i discovered how great the RI library is for studying! the wooden chairs make it impossible for you to sleep and you wont get distracted either cos the study corners have like these desks with 3 walls around u!

sigh. studying really sucks though.

i'd rather play soccer. or buy more fish to fill up my fish tank, to join jober ali, zu and ray*er. maybe i should buy more tetras so that they can be the offspring of..ha ha ha.

now i realise how important people around me are. and i learnt from today's 'experiencing God' session in church, that, the most important things in life aren't things, they're relationships, with God and with the people around you.

and i also learnt to let GO, let GOD.

and after i did let go abit, things took a turn for the better : )

and i've got no study partners >=[

but at least my sunflower is making me happy again :) my mum bought one for me. so sweet right? haha. cos i told her i like sunflowers!

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Thursday, September 01, 2005

i dont know what to think, but i guess its not so bad. sometimes tears just surge out but its not going to be really that awful. i never knew this whole thing could be so painful. i never knew there existed such a phase, but it hurt. fortunately its over, but now everythings over.

;'(

at least i've wonderful friends to distract me. thanks juber and ali for asking me how i was, meant alot to me. and of course, tehhhhhhhhhhhh

maybe its not true that i have no friends, just a few. or maybe not. there are many who're willing to stand by me, or so they claim, but its difficult to open up to people which have some sort of resemblance to those who have betrayed your trust before.

i can't really study as much as before, everything's just sapping my energy away.

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